bruhh

Recently ive been getting alot worse. Like alot. Its on my mind all the time. I hate talking about it cause al i can think about is my mom .is it selfish that i dont immediately think of the rest of family? Like my uncle, my other grandma? My little cousins? My siblings? Or even my dad? My mom is always the first, and thats what makes me cry the most, thinking of my mom. As much as i talk about her on here in many ways i truly cant find it in me to hate my mom. Shes just trying. I love my mom, i just dont know how to express it and maybe thats my fault. Of course id feel for the rest of my family, but my mom, tears stream down, complete waterworks. Not that itll stop me its just a thought. i dont know how id do it, but id want it be quick and quiet to not disturb anyone. Im really surprised ive been around this long

Anyways, today i found out people have been talking about my friend group in school. I would too, Most of my friends are passed around alot i cannot lie, they said i was nice but I'm weird enough to make them uncomfortable, mind you i dont even talk to anyone so how could i make anyone uncomfortable. And if you felt uncomfortable why didnt you open your mouth and say something you simpleton? I hate stupid idiots wholl talk about it behind you back before opening their mouth and speaking up for themselves.  stupid idiots. Keep your mouth shut if you dont even know what or who your talking about. Whoever said that must not even know me because MULTIPLE people have said that i have never once made them uncomfortable because i like to make it clear WHATEVER I SAY IS A JOKE YOU IDIOT. Whoever said that utter crap truly needs to realize theres a differnce between a joke and being weird.