My brothers coming on the 13, i dont want him. I cant have another sibling im jus getting farther and farther from my mom. last saturday was the last time ive seen and spoken more than for a second to my mom since beta in november. We went to our nails done and get ice ice cream,but we barely spoke. i miss mom. i miss how she used to be, i miss how close we were, i miss cuddling with her, i miss her attention, i miss when it was just me and her. It cant be my fault. i only stay with my grandma because i thought my mom was gonna beg for me to stay. I love my little sister but i wish she wasnt ever born. Everyones always talking about how they love my mom, and i ant to say the same but shes the mom i know and its hard. All i need is my mom please. Im sorry if i sound out of place or mean for saying this but i can not have another sibling please. Shes really all ive got as my actual parent, i dont know my real dad so im stuck with this guy. Maybe if i knew him id be doing better, maybe id be happy, maybe i wouldnt miss my moms attention, hugs, and how she used to be. Maybe i would feel more content. Maybe i woudnt feel like having another sibling would drown me out and make me feel invisible